I have always admired Ashley Horner and Christmas Abbott because they embody what I feel I am supposed to be (if depression and motivation weren’t trying to sabotage me every step of the way). I admire them because they are not just bodybuilders, they are multidisciplined athletes, entrepreneurs, and badasses. There was a time when I just wanted the aesthetic that bodybuilding brings, and who wouldn’t?! But I’ve felt like that was the wrong goal for me. Deep down I truly just want to be a well-rounded athlete and I want to be able to perform well in any activity since I enjoy so many different things.
It’s no secret. I haven’t been very good to my body these past few months and it shows. I can’t even remember when I stopped working out habitually – that’s how long it’s been! Other than random hikes here and there and the week on the AT, I really haven’t been moving enough. I stopped dancing regularly, I’ve become lazy ,and I have gotten out of shape. As for my diet, don’t even get me started. I had a concrete for dinner last night if that’s any indication.
Anyway, Christmas kept pushing registration for her 30-day challenge, BBX, and a couple of weeks ago I decided to sign up and give it a try. Now, to be completely transparent, I have tried many different programs. I have worked with online trainers, purchased training guides, and registered for other challenges. All eventually end with the same outcome; I end up quitting or losing interest somewhere along the way. So, why did I spend more money to do it again? Well, I figured it was time to hold myself accountable and to finish something I started. It’s only 30 days. I can suck it up for 30 days. I also want to make it 100% clear that I don’t expect to be ripped at the end of this, like many ads will try to make you believe. I am doing this because I have been in a rut for so long and I have been so lazy, I just need something to get me going so I can establish a habit. I will consider these 30 days a success if I look forward to working out or moving every day.
Today is day 1.
Before I started I looked over the movements and it seemed simple enough. Each movement had three different levels so you could progress or regress the movement based on your ability, and I had decided to start in the middle. Once I started I was quickly humbled mid-set of wall mountain climbers. It’s hard to come back. I had to remind myself to embrace the scaling (regression) option. I am not where I used to be and that’s okay but what does matter is I showed up and did the work. Now, I just need to stick with is because if I do, I won’t get worse, I’ll only get better. That’s how all of this works.