I have always admired Ashley Horner and Christmas Abbott because they embody what I feel I am supposed to be (if depression and motivation weren’t trying to sabotage me every step of the way).  I admire them because they are not just bodybuilders, they are multidisciplined athletes, entrepreneurs, and badasses.  There was a time when I just wanted the aesthetic that bodybuilding brings, and who wouldn’t?!  But I’ve felt like that was the wrong goal for me.  Deep down I truly just want to be a well-rounded athlete and I want to be able to perform well in any activity since I enjoy so many different things.

It’s no secret.  I haven’t been very good to my body these past few months and it shows.  I can’t even remember when I stopped working out habitually – that’s how long it’s been!  Other than random hikes here and there and the week on the AT, I really haven’t been moving enough.  I stopped dancing regularly, I’ve become lazy ,and I have gotten out of shape.  As for my diet, don’t even get me started.  I had a concrete for dinner last night if that’s any indication.

Anyway, Christmas kept pushing registration for her 30-day challenge, BBX, and a couple of weeks ago I decided to sign up and give it a try.  Now, to be completely transparent, I have tried many different programs.  I have worked with online trainers, purchased training guides, and registered for other challenges.  All eventually end with the same outcome; I end up quitting or losing interest somewhere along the way.  So, why did I spend more money to do it again?  Well, I figured it was time to hold myself accountable and to finish something I started.  It’s only 30 days.  I can suck it up for 30 days.  I also want to make it 100% clear that I don’t expect to be ripped at the end of this, like many ads will try to make you believe.  I am doing this because I have been in a rut for so long and I have been so lazy, I just need something to get me going so I can establish a habit.  I will consider these 30 days a success if I look forward to working out or moving every day.

Today is day 1.

Before I started I looked over the movements and it seemed simple enough.  Each movement had three different levels so you could progress or regress the movement based on your ability, and I had decided to start in the middle.  Once I started I was quickly humbled mid-set of wall mountain climbers.  It’s hard to come back.  I had to remind myself to embrace the scaling (regression) option.  I am not where I used to be and that’s okay but what does matter is I showed up and did the work.  Now, I just need to stick with is because if I do, I won’t get worse, I’ll only get better.  That’s how all of this works.